My Best Friends Bump

It has been twelve years since the first time Makenna, and I became friends. I had to let that sink in for a little while because twelve years is a long time. We were still in High School listening to Simple Plan and Blink 182 when we met and have stayed friends through college, moving out-of-state (she went all the way to Hawaii), boys and break ups, getting married, my baby, and now…her baby.

I went to St. George, Utah to take her Maternity pictures. The glow this lady has is ridiculous, I was a hot mess and would never have thought to take maternity pictures but not this girl. Her hair is fabulous, her skin is smooth and has that pregnancy glow everyone dreams about.

I can not wait for Logan’s new best friend to be born in April! Until then, here is a look at her Maternity session.

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It’s a race!! UPDATED

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UPDATE – The End

I have mixed emotions about this race. I was able to create some amazing memories with my friends, and we did some things we never thought we would. Like drinking a slurpee in less than 40 seconds (32…if you wanted to know) and perform service that was much easier to do than you’d think. But the way they chose winners just did not jive (and this isn’t just my opinion, there were around 15 teams we talked to at the event, and they all said the same thing).

We finished 3rd out of 38 teams, which sounds great, except we completed 50 points MORE worth of challenges than the next team near us. We performed service like it was no one’s business, drove out to Primm; we were super creative on some of the challenges and yet found ourselves called up third during the award. Now, I understand this may sound like we were sore losers, but after thinking about it, thinking about the overall mission, and looking at the other two winners (2nd and 1st in our division)…I’m upset. If you are going to judge based on someone’s opinion of your challenges, then you need to create a rating system vs. a scoreboard. Put the challenges on a rank based on easy – hard and go from there.

Do I recommend the race… Yes. Plan on creating competition between two groups of friends vs. competing for anything they have going on. The app is great, the concept is great, the execution is just like gymnastics, ice skating, and diving…someone’s opinion vs. the scoreboard. This is why the NFL is so popular.

See our teams challenge here!! 

Second Place Here

First Place Here

Take notice of the winners (a sunrise when time didn’t start until 7am, 23 miles worth of trails and all the other things you did…in 8 hours. Something just isn’t right here).

As of right now.. My friends and I are on a race! Not just any race but a race around our city. Questival is a service and community race put on by Cotopaxi. Some of the coolest things we’ve done so far… Swing on a rope swing, share ice cream with someone, donate clothes and food… Basically just be badass!

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Welcome To The Journey

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Something has changed over the last two years after having Logan…me. I’ve gone through a wave of emotions that have put me in the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. I’ve been trying but failing in the art of juggling motherhood, my career, being a wife and probably the hardest, being myself.

If you have been following my journey, you haven’t seen it all. To become a mom, wife and career maven, there seems to be a never-ending roller coaster full of loops, turns, smiles, and tears. I’m here to share not only my successes but my failures and prove to everyone that sometimes you just have to wing it.

You have noticed that I haven’t blogged since last year, and I told you I was working on something. That something is me. I had to figure out if I was brave enough to share my journey if I was brave enough to be real and raw on this blog. A lot of bloggers get wrapped up in stats and how many people are visiting their site and what they are visiting because they want to monetize off that, and they forget who they are. Then there are the bloggers who are in a massive transition and trying to find their new niche, especially fashion/lifestyle bloggers who are now mommies. And lastly you have those who start to phase out blogging altogether. No matter where your favorite blogger is at in their journey, remember that… blogging is a journey. It isn’t a fortune 500 company; it is real people.

So while I may not have the perfect Instagram feed, the same style of photo’s and editing for each post, heaps of designer duds or hauls of makeup to review… I do have one thing, who I am. This blog is who I am.

Welcome to the journey.

Mama…Cheesssseeee

LoganJacket – Ralph Lauren (similar), Jeans – Gap Skinny Jeans (similar), Shoes - Ralph Lauren, Beanie – Gift

 

It couldn’t have been any cuter on this chilly winter morning. I convinced my professional photographer to take a couple of pictures for an outfit pic, when all of a sudden I hear “mama chheeessseee”…

How could I not give him his own outfit post after that?

ok…

peace out mom.

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Christmas Morning

Christmas Night Santa

No Christmas morning would be complete without having to put together a few toys. This year it was all about getting Logan his own ride…and that ride is a Mack Truck.

Before we started Logan grabbed his Grandpa’s hand and walked to the fridge saying “cookie…pweasseee”. So whats a Grandpa to do besides give in and eat cookies with him.

These two got busted and Logan thought it was hilarious.

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After cookies Logan played with some of the toys out of his toy box (I don’t think he noticed the massive amounts of presents just inches away) he helped me stack presents.

However…he decided he wanted to open his present’s alone, in the kitchen. He stacked up a bunch…

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and then he fell on top of them. It took awhile to open everything but once we were done I laid out all of his gifts and took his second annual “haul” photo. It was such an amazing morning.

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When a second changes your life.

How do you begin to write the story of how seconds changed your life? That is all, just seconds. I have been contemplating how to write this story for weeks. With tears streaming down my face every time I start to type, I have stopped more times than I have tried to finish it. This story is an important story, just as seconds changed my life; seconds could change yours too.

November 18th was a normal day for the Bailey’s. Logan woke up, and we all ate breakfast while watching Highly Questionable (he loves Papi). We loaded up the car and headed to an eye appointment. You all know the story of why Logan is in glasses but what you may not know is that we waited 16 weeks past that appointment to see an eye doctor who works more with Children.

After we arrived and checked in, the medical assistant called us back to prepare for the doctor. Once the doctor arrived she tried looking in his eyes, but he wasn’t having it, so we had to hold him tight and pry open his little eyes. That is when the first life changing second happened; the doctor pulled back and looked frightened. She excused herself to grab a colleague who did the same exam and reacted the same way. As Logan curled up on my shoulder holding on tight, the two doctors looked at Wes and I and told us that Logan had a white scar that is raised in his left eye. They told us it was highly likely he had Retinoblastoma. Retinoblastoma is eye cancer; they told us he wouldn’t be able to drive, play sports, or be normal because most likely he would lose his eye. They sent us immediately to a Retina Specialist.

How do you react to hearing that your child may have cancer? You can’t even explain it. We drove over to a specialist and again had to hold down our sweet baby boy while he screamed for mama and dada. It was the most heartbreaking thing I have ever had to do. I had nightmares for days; I never want to hear those screams again. The next two doctors that examined Logan also had the same look on their face, but instead of confirming or denying what the previous doctors had told us…they simply told us they were sending us to Children’s Hospital Los Angeles.

Thanksgiving was next week, and every day that passed with no answers to when I could get Logan in to see these doctors in Los Angeles hope started to fade. I was powerless, someone told me that my baby has a high possibility of cancer, and I couldn’t get anywhere with scheduling clerks. I do not want you to think that they were not trying their damnedest to get us in, in fact; it was the opposite. They were our advocate. Little did we know that it all boiled down to the doctor at Retina Specialists of Nevada not calling the doctor in Los Angeles for a doctor to doctor consultation. This was the hold up. With every avenue almost exhausted I reached out to the CEO of the company I work for and by some miracle, he called the doctor in Los Angeles, and they spoke, doctor to doctor.. Receiving a call from the clerk telling me to come in on Tuesday (just days before Thanksgiving) was life changing.

We packed up the car and left Las Vegas with our destination being Los Angeles. The morning of our appointment was horrific, Wes and I were sick to our stomachs. The doctor took us back and was amazing with Logan; there was no need to wrap him in a blanket and hold him down. He simply was better. The doctor told us he did not believe it was life threatening but unfortunately, there wasn’t a clear answer. We needed to bring him back for an Exam Under Anesthesia when both the cancer specialist and the general specialist were available.

Waiting – something that can be the hardest emotion to succumb to. We celebrated Thanksgiving and called the very next Monday afternoon. December 9th, this was the day we would be back in Los Angeles.

We gave Logan his last meal at 8:30pm and some milk at 10:00pm as instructed. Then the next morning we left for the hospital with the fear of the unknown. Not only were we worried over the exam but we were worried that he has never had to fast and here he was…no food, and we couldn’t explain to him why. Then, of course, the worst could happen for a little guy who hasn’t eaten, his exam kept getting pushed back because of other surgeries. Logan fasted for 22 hours before being taken back. You never would have known, he was so good. With not having any water or liquid for that long it took four try’s to get an IV in because of the dehydration.

Then Wes and I waited.

Thirty Minutes later we were sitting in a room with the cancer specialist. Image sitting in a chair staring at the one man who is about to tell you news about the most precious thing in your life. It was terrifying, but I needed to know. Dr. Kim said “After numerous test’s, Logan does not have cancer…”. I just broke down and started to cry. I haven’t had any emotion through this whole thing, I never allowed myself to cry because I wanted to be strong but at that moment I just wept tears of joy. Dr. Kim also told us that he hasn’t ever seen a case like Logan’s before, and he is unsure what it is, he just knows that it isn’t cancer. Once he left, he told us that Dr. Lee was performing additional tests to try and find out what it is and to wait in the room for him. Wes and I just held onto each other while we waited. When we saw Dr. Lee, he started the conversation with “Logan will lead a completely normal life.” but we can not tell you what it is. Both of the doctors have never seen what Logan has, they do not know what it will do in the future. They suspect that he will have little to no vision in his left eye, but they will need to monitor it every 4 months for the first year to make sure there is no fluid build up and to see if there is growth, etc.

We held on to Logan much tighter for the next couple of hours.

So why do I bring up life changing in seconds? Because one of the most under-utilized health resources for children under the age of 5 who can’t tell you if something is wrong with their vision needs to start being utilized. If I had not noticed Logan’s eye slipping when he was younger, we never would have found out that he has a health issue, and whether or not it is serious at this point, it is still a health issue. What resource am I referring too; the flash on your camera.

Seriously.

Take a picture of your child with the flash on and if you see anything besides red eyes, take them to see a doctor.

I don’t use the flash on my pictures because I impose sunlight on most of my photos. So the day they told us Logan could have cancer I remembered a story I read about a mom who took a picture of her daughter and put it on Instagram. One of her friends told her it wasn’t normal, the mom took her daughter to the doctor, and she had Retinoblastoma.

So please take a picture and tell your friends to do the same. It takes just seconds. If it looks like Logan’s, call your eye doctor.

Click on this picture and zoom into his left eye to see what milky look I am referring too.

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